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<em>“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of</em>
<em> power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”,</em>
<em> 2 Timothy 1:7</em>
When I was eleven years old, I took my best friend up
on a dare. It was to watch the classic horror film, “The
Exorcist.” Yeah. I immediately regretted that decision
the minute the character of Regan started doing some
seriously demonic a-turning. The character spun her
head all the way around, spit pea soup and levitated
off from her bed. Good times. For the next two hours, I
tried to save face in front of my friend, making excuses
to leave the room as much as I could. I got a lot of sodas,
popcorn and napkins. The actress Linda Blair was
just too convincing as a demon possessed girl.
And I was thoroughly convinced, not by the makeup or
the special effects, but by my fear.
Fear: Yes, here we go.
This time of year, with Halloween as the focal point, it’s
all about creating and maximizing the fear. Costumes,
makeup, decorations, haunted houses and scary movies
abound. It’s about being frightening.
However, unfortunately, fear is not restricted to that
holiday once a year. We are faced with the issue on a
daily basis. How many of us, driven by fear, trying to
escape fear, turn to our addictions, compulsions and
disorders, in an effort to cope with our own “horror
story?” Perhaps the fear of not being good enough, of
living through a painful trauma or simply facing our
real selves keep us stuck believing a convincing lie. We
are thoroughly convinced we’re hopeless, doomed
and/or destined to continue a destructive destiny. We
play “what if” games as we play chicken with our fears.
Like my less than stellar childhood decision to watch
“The Exorcist,” we can take up the dare to participate
in a regrettable decision, letting curiosity get us into a
situation we then try and find an excuse, any excuse, to
All why? Is it because we’re convinced of the scary
belief’s power? Do we believe our own addictions and
dysfunctions are more real and powerful than God,
Himself in our lives?
When I was that eleven year old girl, part of why “The
Exorcist” resonated so strongly with me was because I
related too much with the Linda Blair character of Regan.
She was twelve or thirteen years old, close to my
age. So, even though I knew it was an actress playing a
character, I still became convinced this demonic possession
could happen to me. I let my fear dictate the terms.
Forget about God: His love, His protection and
His help. Nope. I only believed the worst case scenario.
So, any minute now, I’d be spitting up some pea soup.
There’s a commonly used acronym to spell out the
word fear: “false evidence appearing real.” What have
we determined to be real for ourselves, so real, it’s
scary? Do we see ourselves as only failures? As only
addicted? As people who are worthless and unloved?
As people who are too much or not enough?
In those insecure questions, where is God in the context
of our horror story? If He’s nonexistent, unloving,
disinterested or even hateful, then yes, we have problems,
bigger problems than Linda Blair levitating off
But God is extremely passionate and protective in His
love for us.
<em>“…‘Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love: therefore</em>
<em> with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.”, Jeremiah</em>
<em>“‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says</em>
<em> the Lord, ‘thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a</em>
<em> future and a hope.’”, Jeremiah 29:11</em>
What are we dwelling on? There’s a theory stating what
we focus on the most becomes the most prominent in
our lives. So, if we allow that to be our monsters and
our fears, isn’t it inevitable these issues would loom the
largest in our circumstances?
“For the thing which I greatly feared is come upon me, and
that which I was afraid of is come unto me.”, Job 3:25
Do we have more faith in God or more faith in our fears
coming true? Again, where’s the focus? A significant
part of our recovery is the surrender to a powerful God,
Who is able to do what we cannot.
<em>“<strong>Behold</strong>, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh. Is there anything</em>
<em> too hard for Me?”, Jeremiah 32:27</em>
And that includes our horror stories, whatever they
Nothing will separate us from God’s love, because of
<em>“For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels</em>
<em> nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things</em>
<em> to come, nor height nor depth nor any other created thing,</em>
<em> shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is</em>
<em> in Christ Jesus our Lord.”, Romans 8:38-39</em>
When I was a kid, I made the poor choice to tap into
the fear of “The Exorcist;” it became the dominant truth
in my pre-adolescent life. But then, life moved on and
(hopefully), I grew up a bit. Now I see there’s more to
life than our thoughts, fears and conclusions; there is
And that need not be a scary thing, either. Let God
be your answer to your every fear! Let God into your
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